http://app-casie-1.aidpage.com/ Thu, 7 Sep 2006 01:52:30 PDT en-us Aidpage(SM) http://a-little-help-is-needed.app-casie-1.aidpage.com/ My name is casie b. In the last year, my life was turned upside down. My husband Jesse and I moved in with my father after he had numerous problems with his health. We had two daughters, so I was able to stay home with them and my dad. After about 3 months, my father suddenly passed away. He had no life insurance no a will, so everything we had needed to be sold to cover final expenses. A little less than 2 months later, our youngest daughter, Juliana passed away due to SIDS. I hadnt yet dealt with my fathers death, and if losing him didnt cut deep, anyone whos ever lost a child knows that the pain from that is monumentos. I went into a very deep depression, and my husband took leave to help with our oldest daughter. I had a very hard time even trying to start getting over my grief, so I held all the pain in. Being stubborn, I felt that if my depression came on so suddenly, it would leave just as quickly. After about half a year, I wasnt even myself. I had lost all of my heart, my will to move on, and it was like I was just living as a ghost. I started cutting myself and hurting myself because I was so angry. My husband was afraid to leave me by myself, and so in turn, he lost his job for good. The job market in my town is very slim, so the house that my dad lived in had to be sold to cover our expenses. One day I just snapped, and my husband caught me cutting myself . I had no idea how to talk to him or anyone about how badly I felt because I felt like i was just plain crazy. When he walked in on me, he just started crying. He begged me to let go of the reins and accept help. The next day I checked myself into a psychiatric hospital, and was diagnosed manic depressive, bipolar disorder. I got out of the hospital a few days ago and I can honestly say that I feel so much better. I was finally able to grieve, and a whole new love for life that i had was apparrent to everyone around. So heres my problem. My family suffered so much, financially and emotionally, and we are ready to move on. We need to move to the city because of better job opportunities. We have no money to pay for first months rent on an apartment, and to turn our bills on. Also, the transit system in the city is kind of shabby, and we have no vehicle either. He already has a job guaranteed manufacturing horse trailers at 11.00 dollars an hour, but we just need the resources to move over there. I understand that there are people worse off than me, and Im not sure what you can help me with, but any help would be deeply appreciated. All I want is for my daughter and husband to have their normal life back, and any assistance would help greatly. Thank you for your time. P.S. I am registered with paypal. Im not sure how this works exactly, but I do have an account. Thank you. My email is CasieBasford@hotmail.com. Mon, 11 Sep 2006 11:44:56 PDT